Dying to Self, Living for Christ

I’m Just Sayin’!

Michael@Okulski.org

This sharing involves two related dreams that occurred two nights apart.

1st Dream: The first dream was on May 11, 2020, 30th Day after The Day of Firstfruits. I am in an airport in a passenger lounge. I have a ticket to go home and the flight is scheduled for 4:30. The agent that is supposed to check me it has denied me access to the flight.

I then talk to someone over the phone and am told that my passport has been revoked. When I asked why, the understanding I received through my frustration was that they wanted me to come back but they couldn’t control me so they were denying me access to the flight. I then see a passenger who has a premium platinum frequent flyer card have no problems checking in and getting on the plane. I am very frustrated. (End of Dream)

Interpretation: When I woke up I was still physically frustrated. Why would these people even want to control me? As I pondered this, the saying from The Apostle Paul “It is not I who live, but Christ lives in me” came to mind. It wasn’t that someone wanted to control me, although that is how I rationalized it through my frustration, It was that I still had a rebellious nature against God and that this was stopping me from going higher in the prophetic and subsequently, in The Kingdom of Heaven and my relationship with God.

This rebellious spirit was hindering my desires to be one with God’s desires. It was stopping me being like Jesus and doing His will. It was stopping me from loving God! It seems that I had gone as far as I could go in the prophetic until this problem was solved. How is it solved? I must activate my faith that I am indeed crucified with Jesus so that it is no longer I who live, but it is Jesus who lives in me. I must die if I am to manifest my hearts desire be a friend with Jesus who died for me.

I felt like my heart was ripped open. How could I treat God this way? I did everything that I know how to do. Repent, ask forgiveness, and cast out this ugly, poisonous, evil demonic puke in the Name of Jesus. I spent the rest of the day in this mode of operation. It was a long day. Praise Yah for His direction and His correction! 

2nd Dream: The next dream is on May 13, 2020, the 32nd Day after The Day of Firstfruits. I am leaving my job. I’m not sure if I quit or was fired but I feel really bummed. Then a man comes up to me and tells me that I need to agree to go through some kind of process.

I am then standing at the edge of a lake and am told I needed to die. I am wrapped in burial cloth and am tossed into the water. This is repeated a total of three times. While I am under the water I feel like I am dying. Afterwards, I am standing next to the lake. I feel inside like I am dead but I am still standing, very much alive. I am told that this was all about “dying to self.”

I am then sitting next to someone. He has a plate piled high with bacon and a candle with the Star of David engraved on it. I try to tell him that he will never see this happen in real life but he doesn’t understand why. I then try to explain to him the difference between clean and unclean. A Rabbi then comes over and I ask him to explain, but He is not interested in the clean and unclean. Instead, He is focused on the fact that the person’s epaulette on his shirt is crooked. I’m not impressed with this Rabbi. (End of Dream)

Interpretation: When I wake up I am so relieved and happy, praising God for His mercy and The Blood of the Lamb and for forgiving and delivering me from my rebellious nature (described in the dream of May 11th, 2020.) Thankful for helping me to die to self that Jesus may live in me and through me. I praised God for hours after I woke up, so happy that I could continue my journey to be a friend and Bondservant to God.

The second part of the dream depicts me acting in a priestly role, teaching the difference between the clean (candle, light of the Jewish nation) and the unclean (bacon, swines flesh). Concerning the Rabbi in the dream, it is written, “Her priests have violated my law, and have profaned mine holy things: they have put no difference between the holy and profane, neither have they shewed difference between the unclean and the clean, and have hid their eyes from my sabbaths, and I am profaned among them.” (Ez 22:26 ,)  and concerning me in the dream it is written, “And they shall teach my people the difference between the holy and profane, and cause them to discern between the unclean and the clean.” (Ez 44:23) Praise Yah!